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THINNER by Antigone Chapter 33
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“Frank, are you okay?” You’re
asking
me? The elder Hardy thought, grateful for the red light they’d
just paused at. Hard as he tried Frank could not shake the sense of
disbelief that he was actually doing this, actually driving his brother
to school after all that had happened. The elder Hardy knew that their
friends were all concerned, eager to see Joe, to welcome him back; but
they also were hoping that they could help him see the light. “You mad or something? You’re giving me the silent treatment.” Frank gripped the wheel with white knuckles and took a deep breath. “I want to check in with you a lot today. And if you’re dizzy,
you’ll go to the nurse, right? Have her page me, I’ll come help
you.” “Frank, for God’s sake, would you please give it a rest? Just for a
day? Look, I’m going back to school, everything’s going to be fine.
Just relax, okay?” It’s
not okay! Nothing’s okay! The light changed, and Frank slowly steered the van toward the school
parking lot. “You’ll meet me for lunch?” the elder Hardy asked,
struggling to keep his voice casual. “I might go and work through lunch. I’m going to be super behind.”
Of
course, and then you’ll skip, just like you skipped breakfast, ignoring
all of our pleas but Joe did you look at our faces? Dad, exhausted, turning
into an insomniac; Mom, her eyes lightly pink as if she was only resting
in between tears; Aunt Gertrude, her face taught, her ideas of what to do
lost as Joe’s body disappears despite the scoldings. And
me? I don’t even know what my own face resembles anymore. Perhaps, like
Joe’s, it’s waning. “I’d feel a lot better if you met me,” Frank murmured. Joe turned
and watched his brother for a moment. “Frank, have you been sleeping? You look…kinda bad.” “Well, I feel pretty lousy.” “You ought to take a day off and rest or something. You look
exhausted, bro.” The elder Hardy pulled into a parking spot, braked, and blinked, hard,
fighting off tears. This was the real Joe: kind, caring, looking
out for his older brother. Not sick, not emaciated, not bent on
self-destruction. Not anorexic. Not bulimic. Not depressed. “Well…you’ll meet me after school then, right? We’ll drive home
together. Or maybe we can go somewhere, do something.” “All right.” The two boys gathered their things and locked up the van, heading toward
the school; halfway there Joe paused, rested a hand on his forehead,
swayed. “Joe?” “I’m all right,” the younger Hardy murmured. Frank slid an arm
around him and pulled him close. “I’ll help you,” he said gently, hoping Joe wouldn’t raise his
eyes and see the elder Hardy’s eyes rapidly filling with tears. * Frank tried to get through the day. He stood by as the Hardy’s friends welcomed Joe back, all the while
casting wary glances at Frank as if to say what now? Can’t you see
he’s still sick? What should we do? I
don’t know, I don’t know I
don’t know I don’t know I don’t know… Vanessa had pulled Frank aside and tearfully asked what the Hardy’s
were going to do, if Joe was going back to the hospital or if they were
sending him to a specialized place. “We don’t know Van,” Frank had said tiredly. “There isn’t much
we can do aside from committing him to an institution. Most specialized
centers, like RENFREW and such, won’t take men. And what good’s it do
if he won’t even try to recover?” “But…Frank…he needs help. Fast. He’s lost weight, didn’t they
do anything for him?” The elder Hardy had looked past Vanessa to his brother, now sitting on
one of the benches in the senior hallway as Chet had patted his shoulder.
“They couldn’t,” he had murmured. The elder Hardy went about his day as he usually did. He went to his
classes, took notes, handed in his assignments, kissed Callie in the
hall, met his friends for lunch—and all the while felt he was breaking.
He barely recognized his brother in the hall now, knew him only by
stares given by students who now realized that Joe’s absence was not
due to a cold or virus, but a very severe weight problem. Frank, who hadn’t been sleeping, or probably eating as much as he
should, felt the stress of it all catching up and quietly asked to be
excused. In the hall he stood alone, trying hard to pull himself together: he
drew a deep breath, startled to find it escape in a short sob. He tried
again; a louder one this time, more aching. Stumbling down the hall, he
made his way to the men’s room, leaned against the stall, and burst
into tears. Get
a grip
Hardy, you’re still in school you have classes to go to you can’t
do this, not now, not here, cry at home, cry when you’re alone, what
are you thinking you weak baby, huh? Joe’s the one suffering, Joe’s
the one depressed, you’re just watching him fade away… But
that’s just it! I’m watching him fade away. My brother. My best
friend. Fading before my eyes. Killing himself. Dying.
Frank drew a deep breath and got slowly to his feet. He washed his face,
dried it with paper towels, and made his way upstairs to the guidance
office. “I’d like to speak to a counselor,” he told the woman at the front
desk. She looked him over, frowned, and rose, disappearing into the hall of
offices guarded by her desk. Frank glanced around at the many pamphlets
set up on tables around the office—pamphlets on depression, pamphlets
on suicide, pamphlets on body image, pamphlets on stress and peer
pressure and smoking and drugs. Frank thought of health class in junior
high and wondered if anyone actually touched this school-time propaganda.
“Third door on the right,” the secretary announced, re-emerging and
gesturing to the rooms behind her. Frank thanked her and walked behind her desk and on to a long hall with
green tile and cream walls, a hall that reminded him suspiciously of the
sixth floor of Bayport General where his brother had resided for the past
two weeks. “In here,” a voice called as Frank passed an office. The elder Hardy
pushed the door open and shut it quietly behind him. “Have a seat,” a pleasant man with glasses and a receding hairline
said with a grin. “What’s your name?” “Frank Hardy.” “Okay. Oh, do you have a brother? On the wrestling team maybe?” The elder Hardy bit his lip, hard, and nodded. “Yeah,” he almost
whispered. “So, Frank, what can I do for you?” Frank swallowed hard and drew a trembling breath. “It’s…about
my…my brother. Joe, his name is Joe. He has this…problem where he
won’t eat. He’s anorexic, and bulimic by now, and he’s lost all
this weight and I don’t—” “Son,” the man gently
interrupted. “What?” Frank felt his heart pounding as the counselor rubbed his eyes, hoping
desperately that this man had some words of wisdom the hospitals missed,
that he’d offer to call Joe in and sit him down and help him, that he
would understand and— “Boys can’t have eating disorders.”
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